What to do with a mind full of disparate desires? Every day we need to decide for one thing and against another. Some days we'll make lots of choices; on others, very few. A lot of the time we don't even know we're making a decision.
When the big forks in the road arrive, I find myself more aware of the one door opening/one door closing metaphor. Confusion is not the right word, because I understand that this is a universe built to favour Boolean logic - if this happens, then that cannot happen (at least not right then.) It's more like I am eternally quizzical at the fractional dimensions of our minds. And yet despite that logical detachment I never get any closer to an answer.
Inclusion, exclusion; success, failure; 1 or zero. I get it. But that doesn't make the process easier.
I want:
To travel, and stay at home.
To be attached, but independent.
To be true to myself, and still not offend everybody.
To climb mountains and swim at the beach.
To say what I think, but not create foes.
To be alone, and to be with.
To keep it real dude, and make it big.
To avoid ego, and still be the man.
You see the dilemma.
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